Spring

Dear friends,

Happy Belated Spring everyone! Ahh I love spring,it's my second favorite season.Summer being my absolute favorite of course! But anyways,with Spring always comes change some of which is pleasant and some of which is not.

 For me,I see the changes in nature and that makes me ache even more for my new adventure!On April 1st,I applied to the Woodring Program of Education and I am overjoyed,nervous,and impatient to get my results back! Ahh,it's the 21st so that means it's only been a short time since I've turned everything in.At first I didn't mind waiting,I thought it would go by fast,but I realized as time goes on I've become more anxious and self deprecating.And I certainly don't mean to be,there are just so many people in the world that I don't want to disappoint most of all being myself.This has led me to be more worried and anxious than usual.Small things that wouldn't bother me normally are,and I'm forgetting things that should be focused upon which has pushed me further into this state I dont even want to be in.But I know I can work myself out of it,Andrew my boyfriend along with my family have all been so helpful.As they usually are,and I am forever grateful to have them in my life.So that's why I wanted to take a moment and reflect on what I have in my present moment:

I have a home

I have a wonderful family

I have a sweet and thoughtful boyfriend

I have amazing friends

I have the best coworkers 

I have my life

I have my animals

I have a job,that I love to do more than anything.(Even if I do complain from being tired)

I have a car

I have a mission in life 

I have school

I have an education

I have all the clothes I could ask for

I have a good home life

I have the money in my pocket 

I have patience

I have kindness

I have my lipstick

I have my big heart 

I have people to watch over me

I have people who care

I have a care for my world 

I have so much in this life,that I shouldn't worry so much but I do.

I have a worry,to make sure I never forget how truly lucky I am.

It's hard sometimes,and I know it's difficult for me right now.But I know someday I will look back and laugh at myself.Because I know my life could be so much harder,and when the going gets tough to look ahead and learn from your mistakes.Certainly nobody is perfect in our world,but all of us can try to be the kind of perfect we are destined to be.

Take a moment and list down all the things you are thankful for 💛 

Lots of love,

💛💛💛💛 H 

Valentine's Day

Ahhh Valentine's day,the day of love,affection,chocolate,and cats.Oh wait that's everyday for me. I love Valentine's day,it's one of my favorite holidays,I'm sure it's because I am a hopeless romantic,the idea of having a Valentine the one who has your heart possibly forever,or just temporarily is just sweet. But I don't want to leave out all those who don't have a Valentine,even if you don't you still have chocolate and other things to look forward too!And even if you are single,your Valentine could still be a friend,your sister,your cat,your dog,or your celebrity crush.Valentine's day isn't just about having that one special person,it's also about being able to appreciate the beauty that is love. And certainly anyone can appreciate that! <3
        Anyway's I also wanted to talk about my own Valentine(for just a bit),he's wonderful,sweet,thoughtful,quiet,and just genuine.He's so great,and I love him a whole lot. We've been together for 2 and a half years,which really hasn't felt that long at all! So obviously,we've had several Valentine's day's together,and out of these three our very first is my absolute favorite. Like every year,I had gotten a special dress for the day,I had my whole outfit all planned out,I'd made him a card,and gotten some chocolates for him.I waited anxiously for the day,and once it arrived it was not at all what I had planned for. It was a dreary,wet,and cold winter day.The rain was coming down so hard,but still I wore my little dress,and opted for boots instead of flats,I made it work even though the weather wasn't working in my favor. Once I got out of school,he picked me up and I was so excited.I was wondering what we were going to do,surely he had something special planned! Sadly,he ended up having to pick up a washer for his grandma,and we had a few other errands to do.Saddened,but still content to spend time with him,we set off to pick up the washer. We had fun laughing,and singing on the drive to Bremerton. And I thought to myself,it really isn't that bad,we get to see each other at least and we could maybe do something fun another day.Once we reached his grandma's it took such a long time to install the washer,we had to go and get another part the washer didn't even come with! As the hours stretched by,I got a little dismayed I really did want to do something fun! And by the time they would probably get done,I'd have to get home for my curfew. To my surprise,he was able to finish installing the washer quicker than he or I thought! So, we had dinner, and once it was over we said our goodbyes,I figured we would just head to my house and watch a movie or something like that. But as we got in his truck,he turned to me and said I wanna take you somewhere.I'm sorry our Valentine's day wasn't perfect but I can take you somewhere at least where it will be something.So we drove, and he took me to a beach.I know it seems so silly,it was windy and cold,but the rain had  finally let up,although the sun had set, it was still so beautiful. He gave me his sweater to keep me a little warmer,took out a blanket and we sat on the sand.I looked up at the clear sky,feeling the bite of the wind,smelling the saltwater,and seeing the reflection of the moon onto the black water.It was so beautiful,and it made that day so much better. I've always loved to collect rocks,and so soon I got up and started searching for rocks,picking up sea glass as well. Using my phone as a flashlight,I happened upon a rock,looking at it more closely,I noticed that in the dry parts of it in the very center was a heart.It made me smile, and everything suddenly dawned on me.Love is always around us,no matter what kind,no matter our mind set,there is evidence of it even in nature.
"There is no fear in love;Perfect love casts away fear"-John 4:18
Happy Valentine's Day all! Hope you all are able to enjoy it.Much love,
<3 H

Where to begin?

Hello all,to start off this is my very first blog ever. And I'm not entirely sure how to even start off, but I'll begin with a little about myself. I'm nineteen years old, I work full time at a coffee shop, and go to school full time.I live in beautiful Washington state,and if you can believe it it doesn't always rain.Regardless of the picture that has been developed of my state.I absolutely love my life,although it can certainly be hard to catch my breath every once in a while.
   This last week was one of those, first off I had to deal with a difficult math teacher,while trying to get in time to see my boyfriend,I had my first quiz in my Biological Anthropology class, then lastly had to deal with some rather difficult customers at work. It all made up for an incredibly long and tiring week,this Friday while on my way to school, I took the back way.As I was driving all I could think about was how beautiful this day was turning out to be, the fog was burning off while the sun was peeking through the trees.As I turned the corner, shafts of sunlight were filtering through the trees,as I kept going I couldn't help but feel like stopping and just looking at the beautiful day and catching my breath before I had to go take that quiz. I rounded another turn, and took a left an drove down to a marina. I parked my car, grabbed my coffee, got out and sat on my hood. I just sat, looked, and listened. I felt the fresh breeze from the water, the fog was still hovering around some trees,the birds were singing all around, and underneath it all was...quiet. I didn't feel a knot in my stomach from stress,there was no tidal wave of thoughts rushing into my mind, I'd left my phone in the car,and for once I was able to feel a peace envelop my entire soul, my very being, and it was then that I thought to myself that day was going to be a good one. I knew I'd try my very best to pass my test, I'd meet up with my group to talk about our project,and I'd get to see my boy at some point during the day.I went back to my car and took a picture of that beautiful scene, I felt that perhaps if I could feel so serene in a moment of intensity, perhaps they could feel calm too by just looking at it and maybe they too could have the same moment I did.
  For this week,I want my goal to be to spread a little something to the world. At work I've been reaching out to customers who need a smile,or a kind word,just something during their passing in our paths that will allow them to see a little bit of good in the world. I had a customer come in,he asked for a drip with two honeys,I put the honeys in his drip,poured the coffee,took his money and gave him his change. He asked me for the honeys, and I told him I'd already put them in,and he said oh you didn't have to do that, to which I responded oh its not a problem at all I don't mind.As he turned to go, he told me you know nice people don't get the best treatment in the world its not always the best to be that way.I told him,I'd rather be kind in this world, than cause any more hurt than there already is.He tipped me, and left.These are the moments that make me sure of being such a kind person,I hope that everyone has a wonderful night.And pays it forward with kindness to someone they should cross paths with.
<3 <3 H